Dear Antoni | You’re one!

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I cannot believe it has already been one year with you, Antoni. It is honestly hard to think about life before you. I feel like we live in a whole new world after you came into our lives and I wouldn’t change one single thing. You are my first born and made me a mother. Antoni, you have given me the most amazing gift someone could give. You have only been in this world for a year but you have taught me SO much. The love I have for you, I don’t think I could ever describe. When you’re in pain my heart literally aches and when you laugh I feel so much joy run through my entire body.

You change so much before our eyes every single day. From our little baby boy who was so sweet, quiet and oh so sleepy to the Antoni we know today, full of personality, energy and love. Watching you change and grow has been absolutely incredible and my heart is full of gratitude. I am so grateful to call you my son and I promise to love you, listen to you and forever be there for you.

I love when Baba and I are talking in another room, we look over and your head is completely tilted to the side trying to see what the heck we are doing and why you aren’t in there with us (how rude!). It’s the funniest thing when I yell for your Baba (dad in Greek) and all you hear out of your little mouth is, “Sabba!!!” I love (and maybe sometimes, just a tiny bit can’t stand) when you will only eat if I put a blueberry on top of whatever I am trying to feed you. Yup that’s right, whether it’s pasta, mash potatoes, vegetables, whatever it may be… if you are in a mood the only way you will eat is if I put a flipping blueberry on top of each spoonful.

I always catch myself saying “I can’t wait”… I can’t wait until you walk or I can’t wait until you can talk because experiencing new stages with you has been so much fun and so exciting! But every time I say “I can’t wait” I immediately regret it, because I know time will eventually bring those moments and soon I will be saying “I miss when.” I know the day will cone when you do walk and you won’t want me to carry that squirmy little body of yours to your next wanted destination. I know that there will be a day you yell “Ma I’m hungry” and I won’t have to guess what you are trying to tell me. So I promise to you and myself that I will forever cherish every single second, minute and day with you. I love you forever Antoni mou, Happy Birthday my sweet boy.